Dental Work: Good Grief!

Can you feel my pain? 🙂

Open Wide!

Open Wide!

This may not look like much fun to you! Unless, of course, you were the one wearing those funny looking glasses. But I’m here to tell you this was fun for me!

Oh, I don’t mean the

poke, poke, poke,

scrape, scrape, scrape,

swish, swish, swish

spit.

I mean the fact that I could be sitting in this reclined position while a medical professional worked to improve my health. 

dental hygienist 004

I’ve had a lot of help lately, thank God! And thank every one of those dedicated healers!

As for Kim Perry, the registered dental hygienist who cleaned my teeth yesterday, a special thank you. It’s been a long time coming.

For most of 2011 I was too nauseated to brush my teeth. But that didn’t worry me too much, as I was too sick to eat! Besides, my oncologist wouldn’t let me have any dental work done, as my immune system was “too compromised.”

Now that I’m back to eating and drinking and having an immune system that can stand on its own two feet, I am resuming my normal activities. God love ’em all!

Besides, isn’t that what our prayers really say for loved ones who might be suffering? That their health and lives may return to normal?

Well, rest assured, my life is returning to normal, and I’m thrilled to be looking into the face, albeit a little covered, of Kim Perry, the beautiful hygienist who is once again in my life! Ouch!

“Oh, does that hurt?”

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Water Color Painting with Ken Hosmer

When I signed up last month for Ken Hosmer’s water color class, I didn’t know what I was getting into. I thought he would say something like:

Ken: On “Edge”

“A little bit of this (yellow),

a little bit of that (blue),

a little bit of blending makes the color fast (green.)”

But, NO!  He said, “90% of details are found on the edge.”

What?

He may have meant at the edge where values change, but upon hearing that statement, I knew this man had something to say.

After all, what are the times in our lives that have been the most exciting?

Have they been the times we walked around the neighborhood or on the rim of the Grand Canyon?  When we’ve worn sensible shoes or blood red stilettos? The times we watched the sunset from beginning to end or glimpsed the red-orange on our hurried way from car to house.

Changes could also be the reverse: like the times a marathon runner stops running to have a cuppa with a friend. Or even the times we have suffered beyond endurance and have re-evaluated priorities.

The most revealing times have been on the edge of a value change!

These times paint the details that connect our pathway from beginning to end, anchoring us to our lives, unifying our journey as dramatically as darks and lights unify a painting. Without them, our walk through life can lack color, energy, or excitement.

Fellow student Barbara Enochian:       Edge Walker

 

My painting of Mt. Shasta from photo found on my blog post: The Many Faces of Mt. Shasta

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

If I were to approach my precious life today as I approach a blank sheet of water color paper, I would think back to what Ken said about art:”The first question we should ask ourselves before starting a painting is: What value is this area?”

I would ask myself what value I want to place in each area of my life. Where do I want to place the bold changes, adding the details that will give my life zest? Where do I want to leave the medium and light values?

Next I have to ask myself if I can drop the fear of ruining my painting long enough to paint the necessary strokes, knowing full well that each stroke may turn to mud.

For someone who has faced her own mortality, it is easy for me to say, “Yes. What do I have to lose?”

Hmmm, I think I’ll go paint a picture….

But before I go, I’d like to ask about you. What are your memorable times: the ones you sing about, write about, paint?

Maybe you’d like to join me in painting a new picture.

If so, consider asking yourself:  “What value do I want to place on this area of my life? Am I bold enough to do it?”

Or, maybe it’s time to take a nap….

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Healing Power of Cats

Seventeen years ago I asked God for joy.  He sent me kittens! 

I discovered them the day my beloved shaggy dog ran back and forth, hair flying, and face grinning, between the spare bedroom and the living room where I sat reading.  She completed several frantic laps before I understood she wanted me to follow.  By the time I reached the bedroom door, she was down on her front legs, head and shoulders under the bed, with only her wagging black tail sticking out behind.

What the heck!

I knelt down to look. 

Newborn kittens. 

I did a double take.  I didn’t even know the mama cat was pregnant!  I had recently rescued her from a university campus after she had been abandoned by college students returning home for the summer.  Winnie was barely out of the kitten stage, with every rib and backbone visible.  I thought her distended stomach had been caused by severe malnutrition!  My dog and I looked back and forth from each other to the baby cats.  Our tails wagged and our noses were wet!

The “boys” have been with me ever since.  Heaven on Earth is walking with my feline friends in the yard between showers on a spring day.  They run, play, smell and spray, and follow me everywhere.  Delightful!  My cats have always been a beloved part of my family, just ask my husband.  He knew when he proposed several years ago that I came with baggage in the form of cat carriers.  He moved us to his mountaintop and none of us have ever looked back.

Spending so much time with my cats since retirement has allowed me to witness the subtle differences in their personalities; favorite stretching positions, give and take of alpha status, preferred cuddle times, and the deepness of looking into their enormous, green eyes.  I’ve grown to love their individual traits. But I still wonder if they possess a comforting capacity that helps in healing. 

Every time my stomach hurts the black alpha curls next to my abdomen and the pain stops.  This is not Billy’s usual position.  Usually he sits on my lap, extending his body up to my chin where he gets smooches and nose rubs and purrs himself to sleep in my arms.  I’m curious if it’s his warmth that eases my pain.  Does he know that he stops my aching?

Once I returned home from a chemo treatment with my arm on fire.  No amount of massaging made it better.  Billy jumped on my lap to smell my arm.  He ran his nose from wrist to elbow. Satisfied, he then laid his body over the excruciating area and within seconds the pain disappeared.  Billy stayed there for half an hour.  This is something he had never done before.  Could he smell the chemo drugs in my veins? 

Johnny, the white cat, comes when I’m emotionally upset.  He is the definition of “scaredy cat,” being typically nervous.  Even when he wants petting, he stays for only a few minutes.  Yet, when I am crying, inwardly or outwardly, he jumps on my lap to purr until my dark mood disappears.  I ask myself why he chooses painful times to stay.

Tabers, the golden-belly tabby, usually a momma’s boy, has retained his cat-attitude, “Whatever.”  He doesn’t seem to be engaged in my healing, but continues to bring me joy by sprawling into his favorite upside-down sleep positions.

 Healers or not, all three of my furry friends improve the quality of my life.  During this time I am grateful to have them by my side, in my lap, and on my arm!  I wish they could join me during chemotherapy appointments.  Chemo treatments make me too sick and nauseous to eat until a day before my next infusion.  Thank goodness for scrambled eggs and popcorn! 

The above is an except from my current manuscript, describing a time in which I was undergoing treatment for advanced pancreatic cancer. Johnny, the white cat, died in January of last year. I was blessed to have been with him through his transition. Billy, the black cat and Tabers the tabby still reside here and terrorize my lizards.

I would love to hear your stories about the healing power of animals. Have you had any personal experience or have heard about someone who has? I invite you to share in the comment section below (by clicking on the word “comment”) I think animals are capable of more than we give them credit for!

But why stop there? I’d love to hear some stories about humans healing animals, too. Maybe we could put all of these stories into a book It’s time we have a book that goes two ways. If you know anyone else who has a story to tell, please share this offer with them. Together we can come up with a book worth publishing!

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New York City Meets Redding, CA

My friend Liz came to visit. 

Beautiful Liz and Gayle

She lives and works in New York City and never gets to see the stars. Well, with the exception of those shining on and off Broadway. As a drama therapist she is animated enough to be one of those stars. Heck, she is a star! She twinkles, and not just her eyes.

Before she arrived I wondered what my simple country-livin’ lifestyle could offer a big city girl, besides stars, that is.

As it was, that was enough! She was so excited about seeing those stars, that we slept out under them–in that king-size bed on our deck that we keep especially for star-gazing.

Mike went to town and bought an electric mattress pad for our viewing and sleeping enjoyment, as winter weather had settled in.  It would have worked too, except we got the controls mixed up. Mine turned out to be hers, and hers turned out to be mine. She was cold so turned hers on high. I was too hot so turned mine off. She slept like a baby wrapped in her own body heat. I nearly drown from sweat in that king-size bed-turned-sauna. Oh, well, I did see some spectacular meteorites streak across the black-velvet sky.

King-size frost!

The next day Mike and I took Liz to see the Three Shastas.

The Three Shastas:
Shasta Dam, Shasta Lake, Mt. Shasta

We also took her to pet her first horse and hug her first redwood tree. Next we took her snowshoeing.

Still Twinkling!

We also danced, sang, cried, and laughed with her. That’s what a country girl does with a city girl–enjoys The Sweet Life with her! When we drove her back to the airport we couldn’t bring ourselves to say good-bye. Instead, we said what my Swiss friends taught me when we last parted. “See you later,” we uttered. Then she flew off into the morning, out on a new adventure. I can’t say the same about her, (well, maybe I could) but I will never be the same. I love her. We love her. And I can’t wait until I see her again!

How about you? Who in your life brings you joy?  If you’re a country mouse, what activities can you share? If you’re a city mouse? Maybe those small joys you take for granted would bring a twinkle to someone’s eye.  If you share them, that is!

 

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Learning to Sing the Claude Stein-way!

Which would you rather do?

1. Sing a solo in front of 38 “perfect” strangers.

2. Stand naked in front of God and everybody.

Maybe you’re wondering, what’s the difference!

I did both of these things during New Year’s week while attending a singing class at Esalen Institute in Big Sur, California. (Felt like institute for the insane!–Before this class I would have wondered if saying “insane” was politically correct–now I say, “This is my voice–get used to it!”)

The grounds are amazing.                                                                                                

 

But it wasn’t the grounds that grounded me or the nakedness that revealed me. It was the singing.

Claude Stein’s way of coaxing out the natural singer in each of us is truly Amazing Grace! Somehow he knows. He knows how to guide each singer away from that inner critic who erodes the joy of singing as insidiously as ocean waves erode rocky cliffs.

Claude leading us in Here Comes the Sun

The sun may be setting in this photo, but we’re singing a sunrise song. That’s part of Claude’s magic. He teaches how to mix things up a bit, to express one’s voice “out of the box!”

I know I don’t have perfect pitch or perfect perk, but I have a right to sing and I have a right to sit naked in the mineral baths. And I have a right to live life on my terms. Sweet!

Thank you, Claude, for the reminder.

How about you, dear readers? What do you want badly enough to just do it?

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Putting Eve Back into New Year’s Day

Let’s put Eve back into New Year’s Day, shall we? Eve from the Garden of Eden, that is. If Eve could have a fresh start to polish that apple with her deepest yearnings, maybe that apple would still be whole.

Garden of Eden

Think of it!

No more guilt!

So what if it would have taken 2,000 years to get it right!

That’s what resolve is all about, isn’t it? To get it right this time. In fact, I think Webster should respell the word resolve to: “re-solve.” Re-solving means we knew how to get it right the first time, didn’t we?

So, what’s up with all this fuss about keeping a New Year’s Re-solve-lution? Why don’t we just do it?

Maybe it’s because we enjoy sinking our teeth into temptation!

And we do!

Does that mean keeping a New Year’s Re-solve-lution could be as simple as finding a new temptation?

Ha! Nice try! NOT!

But now that I think of it….

Picking apples in New Zealand

…. I wonder what those apples taste like!

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The Christmas Gift

Once there was a little girl named Elisabetta who believed in Santa Claus. During the month that brings Christmas, Elisabetta secretly whispered to him every night before falling asleep.

“Dear Santa,” she would say. “Please bring me a kitten.”  And then she would fall into a contented sleep dreaming of kitten-elves making toys in the North Pole.

While Elisabetta was talking to Santa, her mommy and daddy were talking to each other.

“I want to buy Elisabetta the perfect gift,” said her mother. “One that will make her the happiest ever.”

“But she is happy,” replied the father.

“I know, but I don’t want to disappoint her.”

So it came to pass that Christmas morning arrived. Elisabetta could hardly contain herself and ran to the tree to check her packages. Elisabetta’s mother could hardly contain herself, either, as she raced to the tree. She had found the perfect gift for her precious daughter and wanted to see happiness light the child’s face.

 

She was quite surprised, therefore, at Elisabetta’s reaction. As the child looked at the life-sized doll that looked like her, her shoulders dropped. She raised her head slowly, looking at her mother. “Thank you,” she said, but only halfheartedly. Her mother held back her own disappointment.

Suddenly, from outside came a weak meow. Elisabetta’s father ran to the door and came back instantly with a newborn kitten. He handed it to Elisabetta as she sprang from her spot on the floor.

She held the baby animal close to her heart, snuggling her nose in its fur.

“Can I keep him?” she asked.

“Yes,” her father nodded.

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You can imagine the rest of this story as everyone lives happily ever after:

Elisabetta’s innocent faith brings her heart’s desire. Father’s belief in goodness allows it to happen. Mother’s love for her daughter overcomes an imperfect situation.

After all, isn’t that what happened in a stable many years ago, when there was no more room at the inn.

A Christ-child was born filled with innocent faith. A Father’s belief in goodness allowed it to happen. A Mother’s love overcame the imperfect situation.

May this Christmas find you filled with innocent faith, belief in goodness and love!

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A Love Note From Me to You

Redding Community Choir Winter Concert, 2012

(For those of you new to Utube, click on the play arrow in the photo.)

There was one thing last year that ALWAYS brought tears to my eyes as I stumbled my way through advanced-stage pancreatic cancer. And that is how humbled I was to have so many dear, dear people reach out to me.

Some listened. Some brought food. Some sent cards. Some sent gifts. Some prayed. Some visited. Some accompanied me while at chemo. Some phoned. Some emailed. Some drove to San Francisco to visit me during my two month hospital stay. Some were tender medical providers who cared. In other words, everyone gave me love.

EVERYONE!

I was wrapped not only in the arms of a loving God, but in the embrace of those He loves through.

All of you can never know how deeply your love penetrated me. You brought me to my knees. You brought me to life. Thank you!

Never underestimate the power of your love!

I haven’t written a note to all of you who walked with me on my journey last year, so this is it. This is my love note to you, and to all of those who have been touched by suffering. Bless you.

As you navigate through this season of good wishes and gift giving, may you be reminded that the love you give is the most precious gift of all! And may you also be reminded that we all sing in the same choir!

“You Raise Me Up” sung by the Redding Community Choir.

p.s. You’ll forgive that I am the main focus. My husband Mike was the photographer. 🙂

 

 

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Biking into the Future…Hiking into the Past…

There’s one fascinating difference between hikers and bikers. Up front, anyway. That’s the way they read signs.

Take this trail-head sign, for example: 

I admit, it is a little hard to read from this angle. But see those two metal flaps hanging out on either side?

The sign on the right is posted for bikers.

It says:

Bikers like to know how far they have yet to go.

The sign on the left is posted for hikers.

It says:

Hikers like to know how far they’ve come.

Why do you suppose that is?

Maybe it’s human nature to relish how far we’ve come in life. Especially if the trail has been rocky and steep.

Maybe it’s human nature to be excited at the prospect of what lies ahead. Especially if life is full of possibility.

Last year when I thought my future was over, I took solace in my past. I had lived fully. I had loved fully. I had no regrets.

Now that I can again blessedly plan for a future, I find it ironic that it no longer matters. It doesn’t matter where I am going. It doesn’t matter where I have been.  All that matters is where I am.

You will excuse me, however, if I leave you now. The Upper Sacramento Ditch Trail seems to be calling my name. Would you care to join me? We can either hike or bike, makes no difference to me!

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The Many Faces of Mt. Shasta

One day I sat and watched a mountain.

At dawn it was rose-colored.

Mid-morning found a sky-blue cake tipped with frosting.

Noon made it appear harsh.

Mid-afternoon painted long shadows across its face.

Twilight cast a magical haze hinting purple.

Nightfall found it velvet black.

It was the same mountain all day long.

 

I am that mountain.

My surface changes with the elements.

But I am the same.

 

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